How many times have I heard that in my life and not done it?!? Countless. Yesterday a friend said it once again to me. It clicked. I knew my little man was hungry and it wasn't just a change in schedule. I headed back to my health food store and asked for yet one more product to help my milk. I knew the two I got last week weren't working because Max was still hungry. The rice cereal worked for a nap to two but he needed more.
Crazy how the downward spiral of stress that wasn't about Max led Max being hungry, Max not sleeping, me not sleeping which all affected my milk more which then led to more stress. YIKES! I tried something called Lactation AOK, the name alone made Sam crack up! I took the full dosage yesterday three times and last night VIOLA! Max slept until after 7 AM today. WHEW! Then he slept through his naps and was happy and back to himself.
I have to say that I felt quite claustrophobic thinking my life isn't my own! I can't even be stressed any more. Seriously Dana?!?! Why do you want to be stressed anyway. Well quite frankly because it was mine and I controlled being stressed. Yes yes yes still working on control issues. I committed to work hard on not allowing myself to get stressed by circumstances but to just accept them and do what I could to fix them. AND I went and got a little help from Lactation AOK. And all was AOK. Schedule changes I can handle, Max not sleeping or changing himself I can handle. Knowing Max was hungry and feeling helpless at how to fix that was not acceptable.
Funny how a day can change a lot. I enjoyed Max so much more today and loved playing with him and just being together with Sam (Sam had today off which helped tons as well...I got to sneak away to get my hair done--AAHHHH! Love it!)
And really how could I stay frustrated at this cute boy???!?
Dana, reading your blog is like a deja vu thing for me. Having Delaney really, really rocked my world, and I felt so out of control. Which was and is really hard for a control freak/perfectionist Type A personality like I am. I'm trying to keep my emotions in check with Jude and am doing my best to enjoy every stage...even the hard stuff. I just wanted to encourage you with the knowledge that things will get better, this stage will pass, and that God created you to be Max's mommy. Keep up the good work.
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