Does this face look like she needs a free Starbucks? Evidently it does. After a long day of more crying by Max and me, another round of shots, and lack of sleep piling up, I headed into Starbucks and the sweet girls in there just looked at me and said, "Want a cold one?" Ahhh....Yes I did! Then I took off my sunglasses and they both just looked at me with the most compassionate eyes. They asked how I was and I just said, "Long Day." I told them about Max's new found awakeness and they just listened and said, "I thought you looked tired." They have seen Max since before he was born and always comment on how cute he is and how not "new born mom" tired I usually look. As I was handing the girl my card to pay she smiled and said, "This one is on us, hopefully that will make you smile today."
It was weirdly enough a spiritual moment for me. I was lamenting to God today about so much and felt this gentle peace reminding me that no matter how much time I spent or didn't spend or how little my faith and trust are that He is not going anywhere. As I walked out of Starbucks a bit dazed to be honest I just thanked God. Pretty simple. Sometimes a kind gesture is as an encounter with God. I just wanted to savor the moment. I literally felt like I had just walked out of the best church service in the world. Sometimes God and spirituality can be broken down to the simplest of moments. Community is doing life with someone and by the virtue of going into or by Starbucks so often I have done life with these people. They saw my need, they met it, they encouraged me and they blessed me as I walked out. Weird. I just had church at Starbucks and saw more of God than I have in a long time.
I took my drink, pushed Max back home in the stroller and got in my car and drove to my in-laws. I handed Max to my mother in law when I drove up and she too just looked at me with compassion.
Max checking out his bike Uncle James found him--still a little worn out though
Loving being cuddled by Nana
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