It's a little big :) But it will help when we have him in the sun. Sam laughed at me that I got it for Max and said it looked more like a sombrero. I am not sure he liked it but it's cute and will protect him this summer.
We haven't blogged for awhile because Sam got sick AGAIN!!!! UGH! 5 weeks of Max's life and 4 of them one of has been sick. Plus the bubbs has had a hard time the last week. They gave me something so I wouldn't have to top up Max with formula but that makes him GULP when he nurses. SUCH A BOY! That in turns gives his little tummy gas.
I couldn't figure out why he was crying in his naps ALL the time, so I called the midwife and she helped me with some ideas. Poor little guy! He's doing a little better but it is just figuring it out. It was a rough two days for me, then I got some perspective because we hadn't had any crying days with him at all! He was still sleeping at night too, so after my little complaining melt down I regrouped and was just thankful to have this sweet boy at home. I again was SO thankful for the midwife process here. She has been so wonderful and knowledgeable for me, and today the Plunket nurse came for the first time. What a great blessing it is too have both of these services helping us figure things out and encourage us. Plus they come to you! WOO HOO! The crying and uncertainty was a bummer, but even in it Max continues to amaze us.
I struggle with living in the moment ALL THE TIME. I know that is part of my personality. I esepcially knew this when I told Sam I do this and need his help not doing this with Max. His response, "With just Max?! You do this all the time." :) Wheatever! So he knows me well, but I really am working on not missing the moments. I love to dream and look forward to things. There is just something about waiting and hoping for something that stirs me! Even when it is a painful wait there is something sick inside me that loves that place! Maybe because such sweet things happen between me and God in those moments, maybe it is the memory of waiting for things that came true and the feeling that was unexplainable when it did come true, maybe I am just crazy! Perhaps it is a little of all of those :) The downside of dreaming and loving to look forward for me at times is missing the all important "moment."
I love the process of being transformed. HOLD ON! I don't actually like it most of the time, in fact if I re read this blog I see how much I DO NOT LIKE IT! But there are moments of memory loss of the pain of transformation when I do kind of sort of like it. Every mom friend I know talks about their children changing them and God using those sweet little miracles of love to make them better more loving people. Even in these short 5 weeks I feel that and LOVE that! At Starbucks yesterday I was chatting with a lady while we waited for our drinks (of course I was...different country, same Dana), and she said something that was just so LOUD in my ears, "Being a mom is the greatest thing ever." I wasn't frustrated or tired or burnt out that day but there was something about watching someone so passionately declare something. It made me smile to be counted among the "moms" of this world. Mother's hearts are given from God and take all forms. Sometimes it is with children and sometimes it is with those that you invest in like children. I long to have a mother's heart to my children and others. And ABSOLUTLEY agree with this lovely mom in Starbucks that there is nothing like being a mom no matter what type of mom you are in this world. What a treasure to be a speaker of hope, truth, dreams and love into souls. That is the invitation and heart of mother, regardless of who they are mothering.
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