Monday, June 4, 2012

Rainy Day

Today was one of those "very bad no good days." It took me all day to accept us not getting a house to rent here we applied for this weekend. A battle to say the least! Thanks to the encouraging words of friends all day! I chose to trust that God was taking care of us but not ONE emotion agreed with that. Panic & fear were edging for my attention all day. Circumstances tried screaming at me each moment.

All day Max & I remembered the good things God has done in the past, specifically with houses. I mean really, we lived two blocks from the most popular beach in New Zealand!

It's funny how certain things can trigger fear. Everyone's triggers are different but this certainly is mine. But you know that feeling where whether you hide it internally or express it all over the place, it feels powerful! It's not. But tell me I'm not the only one that stresses out?!?!

Peace came. Unexplainable. Without trying. In a huge way. It finally came. I can see two specific things that might have just been God's protection and seeing something we didn't. Regardless, I know that God is good. Even when my emotions scream different I know. And let me tell you my emotions are as loud as an obnoxious American in a quiet country like NZ. *wink wink*

Today Max was FULL of sweetness with a dose of naughty thrown in to remind me he's 19 months. He constantly gave me kisses & even once stopped me and started praying. Bless his sweet soul. Lest you think I have the perfect son he hit me in the face and while discipling that he then hit me with a water bottle all while skyping my parents. Awesome.

He fell asleep on the way to music at the Library and missed our Starbucks date. Bummer for him it was our last gift certificate & I was going to buy him a cookie. Plus the Starbucks boy he has won over was so sad he was asleep. Careful my boy will steal your heart in three weeks or less!

He had a blast once I woke him for music. He kicked balls, played in bubbles, row row rowed his boat and threw balls all over.

We ended our day reading books, eating cookies & drinking hot chocolate. The best way to end a "rainy very bad no good" day that turned good!

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