Baby Blues

Yesterday I just felt a little off. I wasn't sure it exactly what it was but I was just off. I had gone and got a pedicure and while it was SO fun and SO nice I noticed it didn't make me feel as happy as usual. I didn't really think anything of it. Then I later was crying at the Miners we have stuck in the mine here in New Zealand. Again, the story is so sad and even as I type this they are still unable to send rescue workers in and haven't had contact for over 48 hours, so I thought that was just a sad story I was crying over. Then it hit....I had went and got take out, which I RARELY do with all my food specifics I follow right now. I was pretty excited about my salad from the Turkish place. I stopped and got Sam some fish and chips with some fresh fish that his brother brought him.

I came home and was super excited to sit down and eat. Well, it started with Sam. I had said I wanted it "crumbed." The nice lady said, "You mean breaded I think." I fell for it! Sam doesn't really like it breaded because it is fried vs cooked. He said it wasn't a big deal AT ALL, but I found myself on the verge of tears that I had done it wrong. THEN I opened up my salad. UGH!!!! In NZ they say "salad" which means all the toppings on a sandwich and/or salad, NOT lettuce. I forgot!!! I had said what I had wanted on top but forgot to say, "Lettuce please." So there was NO lettuce. I BURST INTO TEARS and couldn't stop. To which Sam replied, "It's not that big of a deal." IT WAS HUGE TO ME!! He quickly realized what was happening and fixed the situation and chopped up some of our lettuce for me that tasted better than what I would have got at the Turkish Place. Crisis averted, yet tears were still streaming down my face the whole meal.

It felt good to have a good cry. I haven't cried since before Max was born. I didn't cry in his birth even, so there were LOTS of tears stored up evidently. :) I have struggled with depression before so I could tell it was the baby blues and could see the signs of what that kind of feels like, but was thankful it is just the baby blues that I knew might come so it doesn't feel to overwhelming. I am fine and feeling even better today just not as HAPPY, but nothing to worry about it. It more made me laugh today because even while the tears were flowing over lettuce and I was inconsolable I knew I was being irrational but didn't even care. :)

Sam came home still a little sick and they were quite slow at work; it was nice to have him today and Maximillian LOVES when Daddy is around.

Here is Max's first car trip with just Momma, you can tell he isn't too enthuszed about going with Mom to get a pedicure :)



My sister in law Holly sent some cute LITTLE outfits from Holland for Max. I got a few pictures of him in one of the outfits...even without dad here.









Holly also sent some SUPER cute outfits with American sports on it. Here is one that says "Daddy's #1 Draft Pick"