Relax

A few friends of mine have adopted or are currently in the adoption process for their kiddos in Ethiopia. My friend April that is still waiting for her two little ones has had such a process of waiting. Today I was catching up on her blog and saw a part of the Bible that I added below. It struck me today how God doesn't intend us to live stressed yet, often times, that is how I have lived this last few months. In an email conversation with my friend Abby today I realized something that I hadn't put into words yet. This little baby moving around in me gaining more and more life by the moment immediately halted much of my stress. As much as I hate to admit reality, I was stressed and I was nursing some hurtful wounds. I felt it and didn't quite move on yet. The feeling was a good thing, but the not moving on was not beneficial. I tried, I really thought I had at least. All of a sudden a new little life in me gave me such perspective. As if my baby was already talking and God was echoing these words seemed real and fresh, "Knock it off, let go and enjoy the baby for goodness sake." Now that might be my translation, I don't quite think the God of this universe speaks to us like that, yet the tone was sweet and gentle. The baby on the other hand, if it's a girl might just quite say it like that :)

To let go and move past moments of disappointment, hurt, forgiveness of yourself or others and enjoy the life in front of you is sometimes a seemingly insurmountable task, but over and over if you can hang on just one more week and see how you are and how the situation is things just might began to come clearer. (even, like me if you have to say "just one more week" 20 weeks in a row or more) Timing is not always in our choosing, but this part of the Bible spoke to me in a humorous way reminding me that sometimes our God is quite tongue and cheek and doesn't always take Himself or life too seriously. He's got it under control.

"If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don't you think he'll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I'm trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God's giving. People who don't know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don't worry about missing out. You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met."

Matthew 6:30-33


PS I promise I will put prego pictures up, there just hasn't been much of a change yet at all. When the baby bump begins to show I promise I will let all of you dying to see me pregnant see :)