Yikes It's March!!

Wow it's been a week since I've blogged. Not from lack of content but lack of Internet time. So here are a few highlights & some thoughts.

Job news: I have two applications that haven't been denied. One is a 6 month temp office job & the other is for a fundraiser position with the Arthritis NZ. The applications for the fundraiser close next Tuesday & a short list will be immediately created & interviews begin & end by next Friday. This job looks hard but challenging & more up my alley than pure admin. I am ready for a job & am choosing my hope to be in God's timing & trusting Him to help me as I wait.

Now for Sam!! He has his portfolio ready to be looked at by Mike (his photographer friend already in the industry) and will submit it as soon as that meeting happens. Here's a little explanation about what he's doing. He wants to work for a stock photo agency. A stock photo agency has a website & advertisers go there to choose pictures for their marketing and/or ad campaings. One day he hopes to be in international websites such as Getty. For now he has to start at places such as NZ Stock Photo. The reason he wants to go this direction is it plays to his strengths as a photographer. He can choose the models, choose a theme to capture, plan a shoot & then place the pictures on the site(s). Sam is very gifted at capturing a story, pulling out emotion, and finding a moment. All the while keeping composition good. That is why mike has opened doors for him.

He has been fixing cars for a bit, but it wasn't panning out so he has stopped that for now. I think he made a wise decision and then today he received a call to work with a guy on his business brochure. For me I sensed God's confirmation in that moment of Sam's wisdom & courage to keep moving what his God given talents are.

Today as I was running I was challenged again to live fully who God created me to be & be confident in His calling. To do that takes courage & while I feel like I lost my footing for a bit, there is something new happening in me. Yes, I'm changing like I said last week, but my friend Eve reminded me of an important Truth this week: I did the best with what I had. Don't be too upset.

True. Made me reflect all week & today as I ran I began to feel confident in the things I know & have done. There was a part of me in my 20's I looked back on and loathed. But reality is the things that made me move & chase what I thought God to be saying is a good part of me. Sure there was hurt & hard circumstances along the way. I like the life I led & the parts of me people pointed out negatively are the very parts of me that moved me to live the life I believe I was designed to live. What can I learn? Oh so much, but that's the journey right? I left parts of me in the shadows & was content because then maybe no more pain would come. Um...reality check. Pain is just part of life! I'm idealistic enough to hate that!! But truth is truth whether I choose to believe it, isn't it?


I don't know all that God has for me in NZ, but I do know this He has something. I some how knew I end up back in NZ married one day. I don't know how or why, and I'm not going to try & figure it out. So as I'm here there is some part of His heart I get to be apart of coomunicating to others. That is what excites me now. I still have my moments, don't we all? Where the temptation to doubt or question or just grumble & complain out loud or my personal favorite I seem to do more times than not, silently in my head! Yikes to recesses of a woman's mind can be scary. But they don't have to be. Here's what I know for sure this week:

My mind is a massive place where the quality of my life is determined.
God's good. Gooder than I think.
God's active today in our lives.
I'm me....messy, dramatic, stubborn, loud (oh man to be an American in a quiet culture!!!) and accepted & loved by God inspite of all my "short comings" I've deemed myself to have.

I have some new pictures to show you but it will have to wait for next time. I'm on my phone right now & can't upload pictures from there.

Talk to you again soon!!!