Exams.

They are here. With a vengeance. I have been surviving...barely somedays but hanging in there. The weather has been an unreal cold, which I don't mind outside of the house but man it kills me still to freeze in the hallway, bathroom, & bedrooms. How in the world is it okay to see your breath in the bathroom?!?! I will never understand this. 

I have had a pretty low week combined with a broken washer followed 3 days later with a broken dryer. Not my best week. I love my dryer. I hate crunchy clothes. I laughed then went to bed at 7 seeing the freezing house and loss of a dryer combo was more than I could handle. 

The weeks before exams I feel inspired, encouraged, brave and ready to support, carry more of the load and do it with a smile. Team work makes the dream work. Then it comes and this part of the team seems to fall apart. After a week of anger, resentment and bitterness and a whole lot of tears this morning I woke up early and God's kindness was present. I was reminded of the moment we were led to Medicine. Together. As a team. With a dream for our family. God's patience and love and goodness are real. While I can't explain it I can feel it.  I couldn't get out of my hole this week on my own. I just couldn't. 

Sometimes it takes an internal drive to keep going. Strength that has been earned through growing times. Other times the supernatural force is what moves you beyond the moment and helps you see the future. Hope. 

While I was wallowing this last week life dealt me a few moments of humor. I got a baby sitter for Max quite a few times. On Friday I NEEDED a run. My family needed me to go on a run. Anna played with Max while I jogged off to push the crazy away for a few minutes. I was having a great run. It was semi warm, sunny, and I had all the time in the world. I was about a mile and a half (1k) in and I dropped my car clicker. Between an inch opening. Ugh!!! I walked around to the front of the building silently screaming that my run to destress was ruined. Perfect. The other side? An abandoned business. Brilliant. I tried getting my hand and wrist under. While laying on the ground in sweaty work out clothes. Did I mention it was on a busy road? My wrist is cut and my hands are filthy. After ten minutes of trying I finally called Sam. The last thing I wanted to do was bug him or face my airheadness and tell him. Not my best moment. In minutes he was fixing the problem. Climbed the fence only to find said fence was one of two separated by about a hands length. He then went to the front climbed a fence and found it! Whew!! I love his ability to problem solve anything. 

I ran back to the museum where Max was hanging out to find a very happy boy who wasn't ready for me to return. I love babysitters! I love Anna!! 

Sam has two exams left and then he waits for his grades. We are still waiting to sort some paperwork out that determines his next few years. Step by step is the journey.