HOPE

Max LOVES feeding the seagulls at the beach. This morning we went and there were seagulls waiting in the spot we sit every day. It cracked me up. They sat there looking at us seeming to just be hoping we brought food again for them.

The birds were not disappointed. Max fed them bread, chased them, talked to them and said birdie about a million times!

The couple I lived with while I was in New Zealand the first time has sold there house. Max and I went to help them pack a bit later in the day. Watching him toddle around this house just made me smile. You just never know what is around the corner.

If Sam and I have learned one thing in the last 6 months we have been reminded and learned that what is happening that we can see is not all that is happening.

Here sit's my little boy in a place where I wondered if I would ever get to be a mom.

I sat on this deck morning after morning and some of the mornings I wondered if I would ever have a family. As Max played all afternoon I had to just stop and smile.

It's always nice to be reminded that just because life looks bleak, or frustrating, or just plain bad that there is always another part of the story that we don't know or can't see yet. Four years ago I wondered, cried, and questioned if I would have a kid and today that little boy toddled around one last time in the spot that seemed to be filled with doubt. Hope. It's worth hoping even when nothing is working out right. Life can change, miracles can and will happen and a new things is always coming.